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While rifling through some boxes this weekend, I came across the contents of my old desk drawer at Martha Stewart. 

I remember going in to pack up my office. I had just had my son C, and decided I couldn't leave him to return to work full-time. And I was having a hard time throwing anything away. You see, I loved my job. And I knew at that moment, I was saying goodbye to: lunch on the grass at Bryant Park, afternoons in the craft department, meetings about rocket ships and sock dogs and gingerbread cookies, freshly baked treats dropped on my desk by friends in the test kitchen. I was sad to say goodbye to my little office and all I held dear. And so I kept the pile of post-its.

Looking back, I realize I was also saying goodbye to crazy 14 hour days, shoots that took me far from my family, and late night rides home on the subway alone.  What did I get in exchange? Mornings spent staring at my growing boy, his soft bald head and huge blue eyes, time with just the two of us. Not a bad deal in the end.

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Brooke - I was quite touched by your poignant post its. I so felt your sadness at leaving something so wonderful, so defining and of such value to who you are.
I, too, am at home with my little people and some days struggle to find the value in what I have chosen to do and yearn for more "productive" (in the traditional sense) days. But having said that can not imagine doing anything else at this point in my life. How fortunate are we to have the means to be at home taking care of our lovely children when so many others have no choice but to work at horrid jobs just to make ends meet.
So from one mum to another (even from down here in Australia) what you are doing now is truly your most important and defining moment, our children are our gift to the future. I enjoy reading your blog and hope you continue to find joy in every day - (and maybe when that boy of yours is at school Martha will have you back!!) Sarah F

10.6.2008 | Unregistered CommenterSarah F

I just left a job that I loved last March to be home with my two daughters. It was a big transition, yet I notice a huge difference in my family. The amount I need to accomplish in a day to feel productive has shifted dramatically. Now, a peaceful walk from the bus stop, hand in hand, chatting about the day, is so wonderfully fulfilling. Thank you for sharing your thoughts so eloquently.

10.6.2008 | Unregistered CommenterMariah

this is so sweet. i love this post.

(is the K kendra smoot? she is lovely.)

10.6.2008 | Unregistered Commenterjoanna goddard

yesterday i was just laughing at myself for how many post-it notes i too have accumulated--most often in the form of lists...what a fun peek at the past they can be.

10.6.2008 | Unregistered Commenterbrooke

So sweet that you saved these! I had a similar experience leaving behind a job in medicine...it is hard to have it all. Being home with my two boys has been far more rewarding though...

10.6.2008 | Unregistered CommenterLecia

How fun to find those. I didn't like my temping gig when I had Liam so I was happy to go. Sounds like a really fun and interesting job you had.

10.6.2008 | Unregistered CommenterAndi

Lovely post.

10.6.2008 | Unregistered CommenterMary

Gosh, I can certainly relate to that post. I have scraps and notes just like yours, & I too am finding pleasure in days with my little boy now. Thank you for sharing!

10.6.2008 | Unregistered Commenterchiara

brooke- love this post. I felt the same way when I left. It took me a year (or more) before I felt okay about being gone. I held on to an egg (hollowed out!) from Martha's chickens- my husband broke it one day and couldn't understand why I was so upset!

10.6.2008 | Unregistered Commentersara malone

strange timing. i just finally unpacked the box that held all the contents of my desk that i think may have also been yours? so this may have made me cry (a little). thanks.

10.6.2008 | Unregistered Commenterlinsey

I'm flattered that you saved those post-it notes! Those were the good old days. But these are good days too...

10.6.2008 | Unregistered Commenterkristin

I've been reading your blog for a while now, and I've wondered how many hours a day you worked. Life is a lot of work, and I can't imagine having to make that decision. I suppose that I will someday...

10.7.2008 | Unregistered CommenterAlisa

aaw.. this is such a sweet post. i always think that there's always better things to come along in life =)

10.9.2008 | Unregistered Commenterstevanny

Did you know Katie Hatch?

10.9.2008 | Unregistered CommenterAng

You really did have a job the rest of us would be envious of. You must miss it, save the subway rides at night.

10.13.2008 | Unregistered CommenterSasha

This is pure eye-candy for me, being somewhat of a Post-It fetishist! Also a lover of found notes, even if they are your own finds that have been tucked away for a while! Thanks for sharing!

10.14.2008 | Unregistered CommenterHeidi

Brooke, i wonder if you ever visited us at French General before you left your day job?
I've heard parenting is much more rewarding in the end...i think you made a great decision. enjoy.

10.22.2008 | Unregistered Commentermolly

this is a sweet post, simple statement about working women and motherhood. I just found your blog and I am enjoying it.

11.4.2008 | Unregistered CommenterSarah

oooh--that would have been a hard decision. It's probably easy to leave a crappy job, but hard to leave a job that you love. (even if it is busy.)

I like how you've looked at the bright side of both in this post. (the fun of working hard in your job at MS as well as the joy/fulfillment of spending lots of time with your son as a stay at home momma.)

Good job on keeping the post-its. Great memories, I'm sure!

10.7.2009 | Unregistered Commenterabbie

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